long time no talk, we havent talked in ages. Sorry to hear your not doing very well,  we need to talk more

www.dianapovoa.blogspot.com just someone's blog...

Holp it helps!,
Swan.

wow i am sooo glad for you and adam

[hlcsmile]

I got the cervical cancer vaccine too! luckily i didn't have any reaction to it... so are you going to have the rest of the doses???? i hope you feel better soon....

The nova ring is cheaper than my birth control pills.... mmm... maybe i should change.... LOL ... i take my birth control to treat my acne... more than anything... the "Birth control" part is just a bonus.... even though no matter what i always make israel (my boyfriend) use a condom anyway... it never hurst to be double protected...LOL...

anyway, i truly hope you feel better.... and don't feel bad about adam doing all that stuff for you, you'll do it for him too.... him doing all that just shows how much he loves you... you are lucky...

heh,  dont worry,  adams mum can handle it,  this type of sh*t happenes to managers and bosses all the time.

Sorry about ur losses :(

wow i am sooooo glad that you have the most wonderful birthday ever

[hlcsmile]

I love the new tat!!!!! I'm considering getting one on my neck, but have to wait till I have the money-which may be never. LOL

Glad things are going well for you!!

OMG!!!i like that song

rember that always in your head they are still in your arms

I'm sorry to hear about your sister's baby. That was a beautiful poem.

Chad

i am glad he feels better

my little sister's name is heidi lol

Ok girl-if you don't pick the full body massage, I may just have to come kick your butt!!! LMAO

Seriously though, that would definitely be MY choice, but I guess whichever YOU like the best would obviously be the one to go with.

[glynne]

I'm sorry you had a boring day and I hope your birthday is better this year. I'm having surgery to remave a wart, one day surgery but they will have to give me a general anesthetic plus a local, one kills the pain of the other....lol. Thanks for your concern.

Chad

so it's your birthday may 11 or 12???

I hope he does something for you.... it doesn't have to be big... but iam sure he will somehow make you feel special....

My birthday is on the 3o of may... this year is the first time i have someone special with me on my birthday.... so i hope israel (the guy i've been dating for the last 5 months) does something too....

I like reading your diary. i always know you'll have al least one entry everyday! well, don't forget to let me know when is your birthday exactly!

sorry but,i don't like the hair

i hate pink

sounds like ur life is getting better and better, :D

p.s  u need to get onto msn more!

Thanks so much for your comment !

I feel better now,

i hope too catch you soon on msn !

Hugs

x*

That is both a sad as well as a sweet story! You were right to tell him that admitting having a problem is the first step. I hope he gets into a program!!!

As far as you giving him the food & coffee-that is just awesome! Here where I live, our church takes plates of food to a lot of needy people every time we have a church function. Even if the people don't even go to our church. That's what you're supposed to do I think.

[glynne]

I can see your breast a little.      

                                                    Thanks!!

Good pic.... very cute!

-mib

Sounds good.
Glad you sorted it wid your man.

x

your very pretty u look just like my teacher lol!!!

  xo<Dj7

the best pictures are taken when your not ready!

-wipemytears-
.Ox

Good picture....Take care.

Chad

good picture hun =]

and about going to see the twins, I think you should...yes it will be painful but you won't regret it.

=]

you're very pretty, you should show more of yourself

Answer: I dont think my comment was pointless at all and im sorry for showing an interest in your life. as for the embarrased smily, that was not meant and i actually meant to click the one next to it- my bad. As for not explaining it, that is completely your choice but instead of writing pointless comments on my wall, you could have clearly ignored it

I have never said that your diary doesnt make sense, and i can say that I have read EVERY SINGLE one of your entiries. I am sorry if i offended you, that was never my intention 

Whenever I listen to my instincts I do the right thing.

bar work can be hard and tiring but i am glad you like it and are getting better

thanks for the comment ...will keep you updated never know might visit your town as my nephew lives in marion if thats near you?

[nerfina]

I'm glad your job is going well for you. Goodnight.

Chad

Omg the sunset is so beautiful!!
that's so romantic lol

and you both look great

btw. i don't think we have Kangaroo's in this country where i live lol
Enjoy the rest of your weekend,
Dee.

Nice pics.......It was nice of you to try and help that old man. Take care.

Chad

Aww tyler is so cute!!
I haven't seen a kangaroo is my life lol sad :P

I love your top!

Have a great weekend!!

Dee.

Very cute pics

Love x.

Nice pics...............take care.

Chad

cute pics, i still cant get the pics on mine..

[summergirlforever]

Hey there Melody i just read your diary from begging to end and i think its an awsome diary. i can relate to some of the stuff you have written and expressed in your writting. your man adam sounds like an awsome guy and a keeper. i wish you luck and i look forward to reading mor entries.

Lura

it is easy to think that the person you are with is just only for the sex.... (i sometimes thinks so from israel that he is only with me for the sex) ..... so maybe give him a little more of time. Be glad that sometimes all he wants is cuddle and hug you... no sex... that's good,....he just want to be still nxt to you... that's nice...... i get that feeling with israel sometimes... just sitting or even just lying in bed or on the couch....

And as for your feelings.... whenever you are sad just do what you have been doing CRY! Cry all you want.... crying is good for the soul.... and it will take all those thouhts about cutting from your mind.....

wow some very cool cars there!! hope ya had fun

he googled my nickname that i use for emails and it comes up with all the details for here ...i would have to make up a new email i think just to write in private on here ...no matter what i will keep in contact ...lol ...friday night i will be online if you are there

Cool pictures..................Take care.

Chad

i hope you get better soon... I HATE being sick... now i think i gave it to Israel.... oh well.

And yes you are lucky you have Adam!

no Lexi is my mate Alex, she doesn't have a diary, she thinks they cause to much trouble

x

Melody, Im glad you two had fun. I'm off to  bed now or I'd write some more, I'm exhausted, mentally exhausted. I've been fighting with  stubborn computer. I think I'm onthe way to fixing it completely, Cross your fingers if you will.........lol....See  ya tomorrow...sleep well everyone.

Chad

we areeeeeee. we're doing a lot better. :)

how are you? <3

I'm glad that you and Adam are fine now. I just hope when I do find some one, that she doesn't do me the I was done this time around. Take Care.

Chad

I'm sorry for your loss, I understand about wanting to hold them and protect them. Take care and again I'm sorry.

Chad

Online
crisis help for Australia
http://www.nswrapecrisis.com.au/#

I don't know if either of those will help, or if you even want help (many girls don't, often for valid reasons).

Alright...rant over...for now...I hope something from here was helpful in some way.

Aw  sorry to hear you couldnt sleep.

Have fun makin heaps of monies  tonight

Melody, I wish I knew why I am so attracted to the idea of being a woman.  Maybe it is because I am so appreciative of a woman's soft sensual traits, beautiful, soft, hot, sexy, and intelligent as well, that I want to emulate them.  Perhaps it is because women always seem to have so much fun and excitement.  I am so attracted to wearing women's panties, bras, and other clothing that it is almost consuming.  Lingerie and sexy clothing such as low cut blouses short short mini skirts, etc, as well as high heels fascinate me.  I love to go out fully dressed as a woman.  It gets me so hot and even wet.

I am only attracted to women and relish the opportunities for them to see me in my panties and bra and perhaps other feminine attire.  I am totally heterosexual.

Does that help?

pantylover, aka, panman   

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hey thanks for the commenth

question- why do you want to be a woman so much and does that mean you are attracted to men? just wondering. and i dont mean to offend you or anything.

xx Melody

 [xxmelodyxx]

Dreams are the mind's way of dealing with issues you haven't dealt with yet. I don't know what to think about the guy getting shot 18 times, maybe that's what you want to do to this Ian? Take care.

Chad

u loook fine!!! lol  all those play station games look tempting tho lol

lol wat r u watching .xX

friends????

Any ways comment me

Alice.xx

thank you for your comment.

i wish i knew what to say, but the sad factis 1 in 4 girls will be sexualy assaulted.  those numbers are high.  too high.  we need to start being more aware of our surroundings....and maybe carrying mace.

nobody ever deserves that..and whats sadder is the pain and torture ppl who have gone thru this put them selves thru when the perpetrator goes on their lives with barely a second thought about it.

on another note ...i'm moving to sydney in june  and just saying if ya need a friend or someone to call i will give you my details when i am settled ...coz everyone needs a friend (i remember one of your entries said you were a lil lonely so i am offering a leaf of friendship)

Thanks for your comment and support. it really makes me feel stronger. :)

i hope you  get your 5000$ loan. :)

Melody,

Just a suggestion: It's not a good idea to have your full name on your profile or anywhere else in your computer. Hackers, identity theives, even stalkers can use that information to find you.  Take care.

Chad

I love that song. I played it the day I got married. It was sad, since my dad had died the year before but it made it feel like he was there.

I know what you mean about the kitten. She is just so crazy. And if I leave the room for a min she will meow till I come back.

I swear if she starts jumping in or on the oven I will close the door and cook her.. LOLOL anyone for baked kitten?

I did add you to my favorites though. Talk to you later.

Chad

I don't have MSN on this computer, I'm at my parents for Easter. I will add you when I get home though. Hope you had a good Easter. I'm sorry your family didn't even bother to call you. Take care.

Chad

just think that one day, you'll create a family and it will be all the way you want it and you'll give your children everything you always wanted......

As for me, this is my first year i missed eastern with the family, i missed them, i had to work so i couldn't go... :( ....

Your family must'nt be worth it, If they don't have enough time to wish you.

This might be a little late, But Happy 'Belated' Easter.

:D

Happy Easter too.

Chad

Hi Melody i have your msn and everytime i come on MDD i ALLWAYS see your dairy lol

soo

i come on yours�0„2quite often

he seeems nice thanks

alice.xx

glas1221.xx�0„2

I don't hate my mom nor do I think she belongs in a hospital, but she does play the sarcastic mom as well as the mom who plays guilt trips. She pissed me off yesterday when I told her about what Melissa had done, she said something about how long her and my dad were married(over 50 years) and they never had problems like this. I got pissed and said: "you're not the one hurting here, I am" She backed down. Anyway, have a nice evening.

Chad

kayy comment...uhh commmented? lol
I'm Jamie, obviously. you type alot! unlike me...yes!
bubye =P